April 30, 2012

* A Gift

First things first: The Lord is blessing us with another child. We are delighted! I am 18 weeks along and all is going well. I am learning to walk with the Lord, in faith, and I am learning to trust in Him above anything else.

Proverbs 3:5-8

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your paths straight.
Be not wise in your own eyes.
Fear the Lord and shun evil.
This will bring health to your body
And nourishment to your bones.

I am learning to trust Him. God gave me this child. He will keep this baby safe. He keeps me safe. I will not lean on my own understanding. I will not be wise in my own eyes.

My own wisdom and experience tells me to worry about yeast infections, athletes foot, UTIs, constipation, painful and constant Braxton Hicks contractions, painful varicose veins, headaches, stuffy nose, ligament pain, leg cramps, and more, including the increased risk of complications and abnormalities due to my maternal age (41-42).

But know this! God commands me to rejoice in Him always! He commands me, "Do not be anxious about anything!" He tells me to pray and make my petitions, with thanksgiving, and He promises me peace (Philippians 4:4-7). Fear, anxiety, and worry are not from God. I know because 1 John 4:8,16 say that "God is Love." and 1 John 4:18 says, "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." Galatians 5:22-23 says that "the fruit of the Spirit is Love, joy, PEACE, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control."

God tells me in Proverbs 3 that if I stop trusting in my own self to figure things out based on my own knowledge and experience, and if I put my trust in Him alone, then my body and my bones will be healthy and nourished. I have found this to be true. Indeed, my children and I are healed.

When I begin to doubt or worry, I have to remind myself what God has done for us and I begin to praise God for all that He has done! How can I doubt when He has already shown me such great love. Why would He be any different than He says He will be? God is not a man that He should change His mind (Numbers 23:19). When God wants to bless His people, He blesses them with health, fruitful crops, and babies. When He cursed His people, He allowed sickness, famine, fear, and destruction(Leviticus 26). God is good. He wants to bless us. He wants me to believe Him. I do! He wants to bless me. He does!

Ok. So we are in a spiritual battle. The Enemy does not want to lose territory. I begin to trust God and...WHAM! Morning sickness!!! Do I eat a cracker or praise God for His strength and provision? I did not have any morning sickness during the first trimester of this pregnancy, except when I gave into my own wisdom and understanding. When I trusted Him to give me strength that I might rise up on eagle's wings, I had awesome days.

I praise God for keeping me well and...WHAM! Athlete's Foot pops up on my foot, in the same place that plagued me throughout my last pregnancy!!! I said, "NO!!! In Jesus Name, NO!!!" I thank God daily that it is not going to be a problem for me during this pregnancy. The itching was minor and in a few weeks it was gone. The redness lasted for several months. Yesterday, I noticed that it is completely gone!!! Praise the Lord for what He has done! I did nothing but pray with thanksgiving.

At around 12-13 weeks...WHAM! Painful varicose veins on my right leg, in the same places where they popped up at the end of my last pregnancy!!! I prayed, but they continued to hurt, so I wear support hosiery. However, I have been walking and talking with God (literally). As I talk with Him about who He is and all that He has ever done, and as I remember all that He has done for me, I reason that He can and will heal this, too. Yesterday and today, I have had no need for the support hose. I notice the veins every now and then, but they do not hurt or really bother me. I expect that, like the morning sickness and the athlete's foot, it, too, will go completely away!  Resist the Devil and he will flee from you! Greater is He who is in me than the one who is in the world.

Oh, experience from five previous pregnancies tells me that constipation is an issue for me that leads to too many contractions which leads to fear of pre-term labor, hospital visits, and medications. So...WHAM! Constipation! Braxton Hicks contractions! Yes, as early as 15 weeks. But this I have learned, God wants me to trust in Him. When I get stressed about it, I get more constipated and I get tired and uncomfortable from contractions. When I give it up to Him and praise Him, I relax, I go, uterus relaxes, and all is well. Yes, as my constipation is being relieved, I am looking up to the heavens and I am praising God out loud!!!

I had some issues with not being able to sleep well, but now I am sleeping comfortably most every night. He says that He gives rest and sleep to those He loves. So, I ask Him for sleep.

God is my Healer! He is my Provider! He is my Savior! He is my All in All! He is my Everything! He can be your Everything, too! Ask God for faith to believe in Jesus!


  1. Congratulations!!! What wonderful news. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, as it is so encouraging to read. I am 40 as well, and although I am not expecting at the moment, we do hope that the Lord will bless us again. All my pregnancies have been pretty fair, nothing unusual, some morning sickness. But my last pregnancy was filled with all sorts of yucky stuff. I have to say the last couple of months have found me fearful of another repeat. But that doesn't have to be the case!! I've been finding some time to read and pray (aloud) in the mornings, and although I am only starting on this walk with the Lord (not new to the Lord, just new to actually walking *with* Him), I have great anticipation of all the His is going to do with our family. I suppose if you have more hurdles to overcome, then he gets more glory :-)

    I do have another question (I seem to have a lot of those!). In past posts you have mentioned about having devotions with the Lord. It sounded as if your children had them as well. Is this something that you set up, for example, you told them they needed to spend time in the Word each morning? Or was it something that they picked up on their own? We have a family worship time, but other than that only one of my children will be seen in the Word without any prompting. Just wondering.


  2. Kerri, you are so right that you do not have to be fearful of another repeat of a pregnancy full of complications. Every one of my pregnancies has been better than the previous ones. God is so good. He has increased my faith through each one and I have grown so much as a result of each pregnancy, delivery, and new child added to our home. We did not start out with the intention of having 6 children, but I am so glad that God has blessed us with each one.

    Interestingly, because I have had complications (pre-term contractions and bed rest) with earlier pregnancies, everyone has started to ask me when the contractions started. At what point in my pregnancy do I anticipate problems to set in? I don't! Fear has a lot to do with it, and I am not afraid any longer, because I have a God, the One and Only True God, who has authority over all things in Heaven and on earth, and He tells me not to be anxious about anything. Oh, I could go on and on.

    I will address your question about devotions in my next post.